I have perfect vision…
…when I’m looking backwards.
Forwards, not so much. Try as I might, despite my experience, my past failures and successes, my reasonable and educated guesses, there is still that “fog of war” that keeps me from seeing the future clearly.
That’s the way it is with everyone. No matter what you are creating or doing, today is a new day. The challenges are new. The obstacles are fresh. And so, creating and working and just living is always kind of a leap of faith. Because no matter how good our hindsight may be, it rarely gives us 20/20 foresight.
I can look at everything I have written, every lesson I have taught, most of the major events of my life, and find something I would change if I could go back and do it again. Many things I have done seemed great at the time, but even the great things could be tweaked.
And there have been times in my life when I have been positively paralyzed by hindsight. Always looking back, criticizing yesterday, too fearful to go into tomorrow for fear that it will be just as imperfect as the past.
But God doesn’t call us to create through our hindsight. He calls us to create for the future, with all of our guesses and doubts and a lot of faith.
In hindsight, it is all the little nicks and cracks, the imperfections that give life its beauty. Perhaps I should stop trying to cover and erase and correct and just go with it.