I Still Haven’t Grown Up

July 30, 2010

I sometimes feel like a twenty-seven year old boy.

Last Friday, I shared with you all the things I’ve ever wanted to do with my life.  I’ve taken a few detours since high school.  Nothing exciting, like having a stint in dealing drugs or being a tough-as-nails biker-gang-member-turned-bounty-hunter-with-a-mullet-and-a-TV-show.  No one’s going to make a TV special about my life.  I’ve tried narrating my life, in the grocery store or while driving, but it only tempts me to spice up my day by swerving recklessly through traffic, or knocking all the cereal boxes off the shelf, like I’m in a getaway scene in a movie…a movie that takes place in a grocery store.

Most of us haven’t made those kinds of detours.  We didn’t drive our lives off a bridge.  In fact, for most of us, every turn we made, seemed like the right one at the time.  Yet, after ten years, things still aren’t quite the way we’d want them to be.

That’s what’s really frustrating. 

It’s okay when you totally wreck your life and waste ten years.  Looking back, it’s pretty obvious, and it makes a good story.  What’s so much more maddening is realizing that perfectly good decision you made ten years ago completely screwed up your goals today.

I spent several years working toward a career in graphic design, before I decided that the ministry was the way to go.  Okay, four years of school, not a complete waste.  About halfway through seminary, it became apparent to me that God wanted me to be bi-vocational, and teaching was the way to go.  Okay, studying education instead of art may have been the information I could’ve used back at high school graduation.  So I finished seminary, and got rolling on an accelerated education program.  Everything is looking promising, as there is a massive impending teacher shortage all over the country.  Definately a growth field.

Then the economy spontaneously combusted.  Jobs were eliminated.  Salaries were frozen.  No one’s hiring.  That’s great.  Despite completing graduate studies, being married for a few years, and being awesome in every other way, I have to admit I feel a bit childish to still be struggling with my career.  And interacting online with so many people who have “made it,” and get to boast about all the ways they’re saving mankind, I sometimes wonder why God wants me to struggle like this.  I want to save mankind too.

So I’ve been stuck for a couple of years in a job that I’m way overqualified to do, for way less money than can support a family, in an undesirable educational field that no one wants to get into, with no other opportunities to get out in sight. 

Well, it seemed like a good idea at the time. 

Sure, God had a good reason for putting me here.  But I have an even better reason for wanting out.  I’ve had a sneaking suspicion that I shouldn’t be performing my undesirable job so well that my employers would be reluctant to promote me where I want to go.  One day last May, I spoke with a teacher who had aspirations of moving to another job that our employer had promised him.  I asked how long he had been at this “temporary” job.

He answered, “Ten freaking years.”

That sealed it.  I wanted out.  Now.  My wife said she would not allow me to stay at this job for ten years.  I wasn’t arguing.

But if I want out that badly, God’s going to make me gamble for it.

God gave me some great confirmation about a new job.  The day after I told him I needed confirmation, I got it in a totally unexpected way.  But it’s still not nearly as much confirmation as I’d like.  My new income is based on the number of students that enroll in this school, and they’re all procrastinators.  But if I was going to quit my job, I had to do it this week.  I couldn’t wait any longer for students to sign up.

So that’s what I did Wednesday morning.  I quit my job.  I took the gamble.

Most Christians say that gambling is wrong, but it seems like God makes people gamble all the time with way more than nickles and quarters.  That’s kind of what faith is.  And right now, I’ve got a lot of chips on the table.  I could hit blackjack, or bust.  I just hope this isn’t another huge detour.  In the meantime, if you need a private tutor, I am available to teach you or your children math, reading, history, ninjitsu and other ninja stuff, tracing comic book drawings onto notebook paper, making forts, and being flipping sweet.  Serious inquiries only.  I don’t need any slackers.

Hey, I know this may be peanuts compared to the risks, gambles and detours you’ve taken.  Let’s hear your big life detours.  What part of your life didn’t turn out the way you planned?  What seemed like a great decision at the time, but ended up making life more difficult for you ten years later?

43 responses to I Still Haven’t Grown Up

  1. Hope your step out in faith (ok, huge gamble) pays off for you.

  2. It seems like God always makes us gamble. But is it a real gamble when we are putting all our chips on Someone who will ALWAYS take lemons and make lemonade? Someone who will always take anything we have done, whether we were in our right mind our not, and make it good – as long as we love Him and are trying to do the right thing? That’s always a safe bet. I watched my son make the best decisions he could at the time and it seemed like he was not getting anywhere. His first sweet job after college ended up just about killing his soul, so he quit. Then there was nothing for 6 months. A few weeks with a lame part time job that fell through. Next a great job that was only part time for a year after that. While he loved it, it still wouldn’t support his family. He was just offered a great position…..and it is easy to see now how perfectly these previous jobs led him. Don’t worry, Matt. There is wisdom in decisions that you make with your spouse while trusting God. In hindsight, you may be able to understand why He has taken you this round about way. Sounds like you have a great lady.

  3. I heard Chick Fil A is always hiring :) j/k. That’s the joke we always told people in small group they told us they were looking for a job.

    Anyways, yeah it’s a gamble. But you know what? There is no such thing as job security. Really, there’s not. It’s an illusion. So stepping out like this Matt, now you have to step up your game. If you can have people gather for church and be unified, why can’t you take those skills and transfer that into the marketplace? You seem like a really good coordinator/facilitator type kind of person.

    Well, the last job I had, they would promise me all this money if I only stayed. But God really gave me insight and wisdom through all that. I just took a look around the office because I guarantee the owner was telling others the exact same thing to keep them. So I started looking for another job and with the help of my grandpa I got it. Anyways, it was a gamble in that I really didn’t want to step out but stay where I was at because it was “secure” and the owner always told me, “We’ll take care of you.” But some advice to others looking for work or in a job where that mantra is being repeated, I’d get out. Fast.

    Keep looking man. Maybe make a blog called, “Stuff Bi Vocational Pastors Like.” :)

    nicodemusatnite.blogspot.com

    • Here’s hoping I can transfer those skills. I actually had a couple of totally killer job interviews, I mean interviews I absolutely owned. The principals wound up going off their scripts as we just talked, and we ended with them saying things like, “Great interview!” Yeah, then the school district decides it’s actually going to eliminate those jobs, not fill them. So I made a killer first impression for a job that doesn’t even exist anymore. That’s just the way things are right now, so hopefully I can put myself to good use in this new job.

    • Yikes. I’ve done the “only Chick-fil-A will hire me” thing. It paid the bills, nearly, but it was not a pleasant working environment. And yet, I have this fear that one day I will be back there again…

  4. Hey, I’m in my early 50s and don’t know what the plan is either. After being a youth director at this one church for 7 years, I felt God telling me to go and then strange things kept happening to confirm it. I resigned in Feb. 2008. Yep, that’s right, just before the economy tanked. Good timing, huh? Long story short, right now I’ve put my job search on hold because there just haven’t been any job openings around where I live and relocation is not an option. I know God has a plan, but I sure wish I knew what it is. “Retirement” isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.

  5. hope everything works out for you Matt!

  6. Wow! I have so been there. I got a degree in music, classical and jazz guitar… then I found out I sucked compared to say Slash or Lincoln Brewster. I taught piano and guitar and figured out I only like my own kids. So, I went to school for photography and the guy whose job I got after graduation was doing Phil Keggy’s Album and CD covers – he even won a Dove award. I was never going to be him.

    I finally went to a Christian career counselor who asked me questions for 3 days. He finished my profile and we discussed it. While we were praying at the end of the last session, he turned to me and said, “I believe the Lord wants you to get a Macintosh and program called Photoshop (v 1.2 at the time).” That’s it! You charge me $500, and all you want me to do is buy a Mac and get a software program you’ve never used?

    I was on unemployment, under contract not to start a photo studio, and hadn’t used a computer since the Honeywell mainframe in high school. I was a family of 4 living on $397 a week.

    There was a state program to get computer training on the Mac, so I went for it. I read 40,000 pages of software manuals in 20 weeks. My teacher was the graphic designer for Disney’s Little Mermaid CD. One night we got access to something called the Internet. I took a one day class at Apple and we started the first local ISP in Massachusetts. I had been making $13.00/hr at the studio, and in three years my little company grossed $1M. It’s now Earthlink.

    It was a HUGE gamble to take the layoff, go to school for computers (and we got evicted too – which also turned out to be a blessing). My heart was to serve the Lord as a missionary; which I would still do full-time if I had the funds. I spent the last $200 in the bank account to start my business.

    Today I am bi-vocational, and with the ability to telecommute, I can work from just about anywhere you can get a cell signal. I make 6 figures – which allows me to invest in the Kingdom.

    I have only one suggestion, if you know folks that hear from God, I would get with them, pray with them, and see if the Lord would give a word of wisdom. One word from God is better than all the good ideas in the world.

    I’m praying for you today, Matt.

    • I’ll say that’s a big payoff! Dang, dude. My stakes aren’t that high either though!

      • Well, Matt, God loves you as much me. He really does have a destiny for each of us – mine wasn’t about the money – it was in being giving me the desire of my heart: missions. I can’t tell you what it means to hear from my Father in heaven.

        I will say I almost lost the struggle. I was down to $200, my unemployment ran out, and there were no hours at my part time job. So, I applied and took a job as a carpenter on a Friday – scheduled to start Monday. I just couldn’t believe God that this was going to work out. Sunday my pastor said, “delayed obedience is disobedience.” I went home and cried. I called the builder and told him I couldn’t start on Monday and that I was so sorry. I got a business phone, and got my web site and business plan in order, and within 7 weeks I was so busy I had to hire someone.

        The point: God has a destiny, a really cool destiny for each one us. Discovering the next step, being with people of faith, and learning to hear the still small voice is the hard part.

        BTW – here is the whole story of my 1st year as published in 1997. It’s still amazing to me, even now.

        http://azotus.com/johndrow/business.htm

  7. I’m in my mid-50’s, and I’m still struggling with my (third) career. If God made it easy, we wouldn’t need to keep running back to Him.

    We’ve taken many gambles on God, and He has never let us down. The biggest was selling our home and leaving a great job in Silicon Valley to move to Colorado and depend on (God providing) support for full-time ministry. That was 17 years ago. God isn’t often early, but He’s never been late. You can read the whole story on my blog: http://blogs.icta.net/mom/2009/04/hard-times1/ (scroll down and read the posts backwards, as the oldest is at the bottom).

  8. Hey Matt. I will be praying for you. I know I’m just one person, and I don’t have a crazy Earthlink story like David (which I loved by the way) but I read your blog every day when I can. I can’t wait to see what happens. I took a bit of a gamble recently, and it didn’t pay off in the way I expected it to. I’m still working 8 hours in my little gray cubicle every day, but I know without a doubt God is working. In fact the older I get, the more I realize that if a situation looks nothing like you thought it would, it’s usually God.

  9. Dag-nabbit, Matt! I still am a 27 year old boy!

    Detours? I’ve had a few.

    I spent four years of my high school career focused on evangelism and “saving my school”… guess how well that worked out? It caused a ton of pain and frustration that spewed out of me in Bible college whenever people talked about missions. A detour? Perhaps not, but it sure felt like wasting a fifth of my life.

    I started a film production company straight out of college (the same time I bought a house and got married. When I go, I go big and all in). Three years later, after an epically horrible breakup with my business partner and still not finding a single paying client, I gave up.

    Two years ago my wife and I started on an adoption journey. Still nothing. But we did get 7 months of… well… having kids is now an incredibly tainted experience for me. My wife says I need to “process” still.

    Where am I today? I know you–sweet-awesome, right? I’m in a job I never expected, doing something I never thought I would, and loving it most days. Ministry still totally baffles me. Children are a complete unknown for me. And my detours continue.

    And yet… that seems to be the way God gets us where He wants us to go. Rarely does God take us anywhere directly. Efficiency, it seems, is not His goal.

    ~Luke

  10. “but it only tempts me to spice up my day by swerving recklessly through traffic, or knocking all the cereal boxes off the shelf, like I’m in a getaway scene in a movie…a movie that takes place in a grocery store.”

    Laughed out loud. 75 points.

    I narrate my life sometimes, too. It lets my imagination embellish without ever having to knock anything over. So far.

    Okay, so, I can’t believe you’re only 27, which is the same age as my middle child, and you’re already struggling with not having saved mankind yet. Not to downplay the very real stakes involved in life-changing choices. I guess I just want to encourage you to keep walking and believe that God meant what He promised. You’ll hear a word behind you, when you turn to the right or left, saying, “This is the way, walk in it.” You may look around at the scenery and think, “Seriously?” But God has His reasons for everything.

    The biggest detour in my life was when our son nearly drowned at fifteen and then took a year to slowly emerge from coma to begin again as a brain-injured young man with a reduced lifestyle and a beautiful faith. Not a road I would have chosen, but, like every other phase of life, God walked through that valley with us and we came out further down the road of His plans and purposes. Looking back, I’m fully convinced it wasn’t a detour after all, but simply a very difficult part of the road He always knew we’d have to take.

    God is faithful. He goes before you, and nothing is wasted if it’s placed in His redeeming hands.

    Also, if I lived nearby I’d totally take your ninjitsu class.

    Jeanne

    • See, people like that just humble me for all that I haven’t dealt with. And as for being “only” 27 and wanting to save the world, I thought everyone started out as idealists, and then slowly become worn down 😉

      • Actually, I don’t think we ever lose the idealism. We just pull it out of the clouds and teach it how to live in a regular house on a regular street, with bills and laundry and cars that break down from time to time. We still dust it off every morning and admire its beauty, but we learn how to narrow our scope from “mankind” to “the widow down the street and the kid next door whose dad just moved out.” Makes it a little less daunting and a lot more doable.

        It’s certainly not my goal to one-up your current struggle or humble you, Matt. I want to encourage you. Just like on the highway, life “detours” have a purpose. They may be God’s way of keeping you from driving into a giant sinkhole.

        Anyway, I love your passion and I love your sense of humor. I don’t always comment, but I read all your posts, and you consistently make me laugh and think. My favorite combination. Thanks for taking the time to formulate your thoughts into words, and thanks for brightening my life and a lot of other people’s.

      • Idealism should be nurtured and kept. I was called an idealism kind of person.

        I said, “Is that bad?”

        “No,” he said, “Just not realistic.”

        Why can’t ideal become reality? The only reason its called idealism is because somebody doesn’t want to do the extra work to make it a reality.

        I see lots of “old people” and don’t desire to become “old” (and I’m not talking age). I’m talking what Matt talked about with becoming worn down.

    • I can’t imagine. God bless you.

  11. I went to Germany on an internship in 2005. I was 27 at the time. My wife and I returned this year and I just turned 32 (see, I don’t need you to tutor me in math)

    We have been married for 6 years and we don’t have children yet. Why?

    We just moved to Germany and we wanted to wait

    and

    We can’t afford it.

    I don’t know one rich missionary.

    We want children but it looks like I am going to have to wait until the support shows up, which means…

    Waiting on God.

    Waiting on God can feel like a detour sometimes…

    I like writing my posts like Rob Bell writes books.

  12. This makes me realize how often we reject God in so many ways.

    Going to church on Sunday? Fine. A Bible study? Ok. I even did a Christian college where 1/3rd of my credits were Bible.

    But i don’t like these unknowns. Some of the stories in the comments make me downright anxious.

    I’m finding it really hard to follow God, i guess.

  13. God did want you to take that gamble. It was God’s way of saying, “Trust me with your very life.” Do not be ashamed of struggling with a career, almost everyone is, those who are showing you how they are changing the world remind me of when St. Paul said, “do I still need to boast?”

    You are doing a wonderful job of being you. Let God lead, you follow.

  14. I have never understood why more people are not signing up to work overseas as English teachers. Some jobs pay extremely well considering the ease of the work, and it’s a fantastic experience. I’m finishing up my B.A. and plan to head off overseas as soon as possible.

  15. Gamble = a leap of faith

    Yay, you! I’m doing the same thing – quit my job last week and will move to another state next week. I decided I wanted to finally complete a bachelor’s degree. I also wanted to move closer to a man I’ve been in a long distance relationship with for over 2 years. I have no idea where this leap will land but I feel absolutely comfortable with it and convicted that I am headed where God wants me to go.

    As for detours, I married the wrong man. I remember standing at the back of the church and thinking “I shouldn’t do this”…but I did, and we struggled through 11 years of difficult marriage before he threw in the towel. God used my mistake, though – I learned so much about myself and about relationships during that time.

  16. It’s really encouraging to me to read all these notes about people who still haven’t worked out what they will be when they grow up– makes quitting my job, moving my family & starting school again seem like a reasonable gamble for the future. Good luck, Matt!

  17. Well, Matt, I’m not 27 yet (wait 5 months), but I’ve had my share of leaps of faith. First, thanks for reading and commenting on my blog. Hope you keep on reading. :)

    Second, I’ll pray for you right after I finish this comment. Not later, because maybe I’ll forget and I don’t want to be one of those people who say, “I’ll pray for you” and never do.

    I took the job I have now by faith. It was a promotion, but coming to this branch (I work in a library) meant I had to give up my Tuesdays. On Tuesdays (back then) I taught the Bible to a group of teenagers from church. So I contacted my would-be supervisor and told her that I only could go if I had Tuesays off and I explained why.

    Did I need the job? Oh yes. If she said no, I would have been without a job. See, by saying yes to the promotion my previous position had been filled. But I had faith and I believed that if God wanted me to be here, then He would make a way. And He did. I’m actually writing on my lunch break. Hang in there Matt.

    • I tihnk one of the ways we often “take the Lord’s name in vain’ is when we tell someone we will pray for them, then we don’t. Sometimes we do it to make the other person feel better. Sometimes to make us look “good.” Sometimes we forget, which may be the worst one…that we throw that phrase around with so little regard for what we are saying…just a thought.

  18. Exciting and terrifying, Matt. Praying for you. PS I want to save mankind too and I’m nowhere close. :)

  19. Faith is the fuel needed to go from the known to the unknown and you seem to have that in abundence. God’s will for your life is so much clearer 5 or 6 yrs down the road. For example…

    I hated my job. I told my boss at the lumber company that Dec 31st 1998 was my last day. I had only gone out one 1 job interview and had only given out 1 resume. I was putting alot of eggs into that one basket. I found out at the last minute I had got the job and didn’t have to look like an ass that was un-employed by stupidty.

    Did I think I would work for a company in which I was the only woman on the entire east coast? Nope , but turns out women suck to work with and men are much less drama. It was my golden ticket. Then some goody-goody Christian boy co-worker had to try to save my soul. Sheesh. Thank goodness he was persistant, and adorable. Had I not taken that job I would not have been witnessed to by my future husband.

    Turns out God looks after you even before you give your whole life over to Him. For me He used my husband in His plan to rescue me from hell.

  20. I began a really bad, but well paying job with the state. After six months, I realized why they call these people, “govt employees.” Six months can easily wipe away your cheer and pummel you to nothing more than the dirt the supervisors track in from the front door. No wonder no govt employee smiled in that building.

    God said stay. I stayed and stayed and over the period of five years waiting for God to give me the green light, I looked on and off for a new job. He closed all doors until my husband and I were buying a house. I waited until closing and began applying and got a job making less money at a church.

    It was a gamble. Then, my husband lost his job two weeks later from lay-offs, got a new job that began two weeks later, and his old job paid him for two weeks vacation to cover the two weeks unemployment.

    I guess God was in it. LOL. We’re still struggling, but God is paying the bills.

  21. I’m only 20 as we speak, but I’ve made some pretty epic decision in my time already and it seems like the biggest gambles I’ve taken so far have been of greatest reward. I randomly chose to sign up for a trip to Ethiopia on a mission trip last year even though everyone said i would never get the money….God came through at the 11th hour and i went. :) Then i chose to move away from all my family and friends to another state for uni this year. Big decision. Scary decision. But a God decision and it has been the best thing ever. I have no doubt that God sometimes wants us to throw down all that makes sense to us and take a gamble on trusting him…pretty much always turns out for the best :)

  22. Hi Matt,

    Praying that the new turn of events works out for you! And, of course, all things work out for our good and God’s glory when you get to the end of it. I like what you said about gambling; life’s a bit of a gamble, isn’t it? I love the classic story of Abraham, where God tells him “I want you to leave this place and keep going until I tell you to stop.” With today’s emphasis on colored parachutes and contingency plans and everything else, Abraham’s story makes me chuckle. Just get up and go.

    I don’t really have a huge story to tell; I’m quite literally just out of college. I majored in physiological science and was planning to become a biology teacher, maybe working for Teach for America or something like that. Extracurricularly, I had been doing a lot of volunteer work with International Justice Mission, not because it matched my field, but simply because I liked what they were doing in the world.

    At the very end of my third year (right before finals), God heavily placed on my heart a desire to become a lawyer to fight human trafficking. A lawyer? I had never even considered law. Medicine, yes. But law? It came completely out of left field, but the idea was so strong that I decided to just go with it. I quickly signed up for LSAT classes over the summer and took the LSAT in the fall. Long story short, God blessed me with an awesome LSAT score that made it more than financially possible to go to law school. Just like that! Of course, I worked my butt off, but really, all of this is from God.

    Now I’ll be attending law school this fall. I don’t know where this road is going to take me, but at the same time, I don’t need to know all the details. Let’s give ourselves a few years, and we can swap stories :)

  23. Following God is not always easy. Nearly 20 years into my first career (industrial management), I sensed God calling me to leave that behind but for what? At age 42 and with a wife and 2 kids, I walked away from my position as the general manager of a multi-million dollar company not knowing what was next. Scary, huh? Well, it was for me and my wife, too but we never questioned God’s call or the our obedience. Five months later, I opened a Christian bookstore and still marvel at how God miraculously pieced that together. Me, the one who said he’d never want to work in retail, opened a Christian bookstore that was very successful for several years. Ten years later, I closed the doors when I was no longer able to keep it financially viable. Four years later, I’m still paying off the debt accrued in the final 2 years of operation but have no regrets. Zero, zip, nada, nil, none. My life and the lives of my wife and sons was unbelievably enriched by that experience. Today, I make a small fraction of the income that I made in my first career but I still would not change anything about that decision. God is faithful.

  24. Well Matt,
    As a a 40 year old boy (15 year youth pastor)I will share with you that it is trust that God is after. Some of the directions we take in life (jobs, schools, etc) God will be with us irrespective of our choices! It’s all about trust, (or gambling as you put it) when we don’t know the outcome but we trust that God will be there for us no matter what. God is after heart transformation not just behavior modification! Great post Matt!

  25. I taught for thirteen years. Then I stopped teaching and started taking care of my mom full time. Now that Mom passed on, and plan on handing out resumes to substitute teach. I really don’t know what God wants me to do any more, but I’m pretty sure I need to get out there to find out.

  26. The part of my life that didn’t turn out as planned is practically whatever has happened to me since 2007. This was the year I started looking at what I wanted to do and I was super-psyched about going to Charlotte to get an Associate’s Degree in Travel & Tourism Management.

    Then the economy did what it always does and messes up BIG this time. Everything seemed like it would be fine, I’d have a good chance at a job back home.

    Let’s fast forward from October 23, 2009 to August 1, 2010. I’ve had a housekeeping job that lasted only a month, the market’s tanked, and I’m having to go back to school. My family keeps asking me when I’m going to get a job and I’m trying to find one. I’m suspecting that I’m in career limbo because I can’t go any higher up because I’m underqualified or any lower down (fast food, retail) because I’m overqualified. It’s really frustrating and sometimes I wish things were different so I wouldn’t be causing myself to get sick by stressing out.

    It makes me glad that I have God because I can run to Him when all of this gets to me. That is the one thing I refuse to be ungrateful for about my experience in Charlotte- finding Christ again. If I had not been away from my family, I would not have found and experienced the atmosphere in which I found Christ again.

  27. Heard this sermon on time on the Prophet Elijah. Everyone likes to talk about his battle with the prophets of Baal in their sermons. How he did this great thing, but not many talk about the prep time. The time he spent in the desert canyons doing nothing of major importance. The preachers point was we all have to spend some time in the mundane to prepare for the spectacular.

  28. I knew from my early teens that I wanted to work in the medical profession (I had it narrowed down to dentist, veterinarian or orthopedic surgeon). I was fairly smart, but back then, the guidance counselors didn’t push us to go to college. I thought I’d work for a year while I decided what I wanted to be when I grew up (cowboy? fireman?). One year turned into 20, and by that time I had bought a house and had other responsibilities, so it seemed selfish to chuck it all, go to college for my undergrad and then finish it all off with med school, residency, etc. So I studied to be a massage therapist. In an anatomy class, when I studied muscles on my first cadaver, I knew that I had completely missed my calling (note to college students: follow your passion). (Contrary to some beliefs, massage therapy is not always some sleezy backroom illicit hook-up.) I finished school (while still working full time) but never pursued massage therapy as a career. Little did I know how valuable the knowledge would be. My mom was diagnosed with a malignant growth in her lung. My classes made it so much easier for me to understand what was going on in mom’s body, and I think it made me a better participant in my own healthcare (more assertive). Which is a good thing, because 4 years ago I was diagnosed with The Dreaded Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia (in remission now for 8 months, thank you!). So while I still think I should have been a doctor, I’ve decided that when I’m 60 and my mortgage is paid off, I’m going to nursing school. Better late than never!

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