Ministry FAIL

May 24, 2010

The internet is a great thing.

One of the bright spots of the internet is what the global community of Christian bloggers is doing.  (Well, at least the ones I read.)  I can look around and find dozens of pastors, bloggers, twitterers and churches.  I can see that a church in Nashville is reaching out to their flooded neighbors.  I can see a pastor in Atlanta rallying support for missions work in Tanzania.  I can find pastors preaching to Muslims in the UK and missionaries in India and pastors that just baptized a hundred people in their last service. 

It’s all amazing and incredible.  To look around, you’d have to think that God is just flooding churches, pastors and missionaries with wild success stories.  You’d think that because He is. 

But I think there’s something missing.

The internet should absolutely be used to share what God is doing in your church, your city.  It’s exciting to read about the success stories other people have.  It’s a good thing to be happy for what God is doing around the world.  But all this boasting we’re doing over our blogs and twitter accounts is hiding a subtle detail…

We fail more often than we like to admit.

Actually I’ll take that back.  I don’t think you can fail at ministry.  But so often, the results of ministry don’t meet our expectations, either because of our own stupidity or because of…well, God.  And when the result isn’t what we expected, we feel like failures.  And we don’t boast about it on the internet.

I think I know why…

The internet is not fail friendly

Approximately half the YouTube videos that are watched today are of people failing.  This is a highly scientific fact.  People failing at singing, driving, eating, jumping on trampolines, dirt biking, lighting things on fire, dancing, doing magic, and re-enacting Star Wars fight scenes make up the biggest internet population.  I wonder how much time is spent reveling in the hilarious failure of strangers.  You’re probably thinking of the last fail video you watched.  I’m thinking of keyboard cat playing after the girl fell off the table while dancing.

And before YouTube there was America’s Funniest Home Videos.  The show was full of people failing at life, getting de-pantsed, or falling from high places, and Bob Saget being not funny.  And everyone loved that show.  I truly don’t understand why the show still exists now that the internet provides an endless stream of failure.

But when failure happens to you, it’s not the thing you want to brag about.  And when your ministry work doesn’t yield what you had wanted, it makes you feel like a huge failure. 

The internet makes you feel like the only failure

I understand, no one wants to be Debbie Downer.  Why bust up the huge group pat-ourselves-on-the-back party that’s constantly happening on the internet among Christians to tell them what went wrong at your church, or worse, what wrong with you as a Christian?

It’s a cyclical thing, really.  Since few people are sharing their difficulties in ministry on the internet, you could look around and believe that God is just squeezing every last drop out of every church and pastor.  You don’t see pastors on TV having a difficult time of things, do you?  Everywhere I look, it’s all good and no bad when it comes to ministry.  Why would I be the first in the whole internet to admit that God doesn’t always “use” me the way I had wished? 

Christians love to use that phrase “God is using this,” or something like that.  But what if you don’t feel God used you quite enough last Sunday?  Failure for Christians is a two-edged sword (i.e. it has a regular blade, but where the handle is supposed to be, there’s just another blade, which makes you wonder why anyone would make a two-edged sword to begin with.)  When ministry is tough, or doesn’t live up to expectations, is it my fail, or God’s fail?  And why am I the only one failing, or why am I the only one God is failing?  That’ a lose-lose situation.

We’re all missing out on your failure

No one wants to be the first to talk in a small group.  Everyone wants someone to go first.  But when we hold back, when we only boast about the good and hide the bad, we’re depriving everyone of a true sense of what ministry is all about.  We’ve got some pastor out in nowheresville convinced he’s the only one who can’t get a crowd to come to the front for baptism.  We’re convincing a lay leader that he’s the only guy who embarassed himself with an idea that was a spectacular flop.  Everywhere, we’ve got Christians who think they’ve failed, and they think they’re the only ones.

And we’re depriving ourselves of the chance to pray for each other.

I’ve come to realize I don’t like George Barna, if only because he’s always the bearer of bad news.  But he gives strong evidence that despite all the boasting that we’re doing online, the church in America is shrinking.  That means there’s a whole lot of failing going on that isn’t being shared.  It’s being hidden, ashamed of.

The fact is, disappointment and feelings of failure have been a part, nay, a necessary part of ministry since…well, forever.  We might as well be honest so we can actually do something to encourage one another.

I’ll go first.

I’ve been disappointed by God.  More than once.  My work hasn’t always yeilded what I hoped.  My prayers have not all been answered with “yes.”  Church events, youth programs, sermons and Sunday school lessons have all failed to have the impact I wanted.  I’ve failed at being a pastor at times.  There were times when God did not seem to give me the right words to say.  There were times I was uncaring or insensitive or lazy or unprepared to speak or pray or teach.  I have preached words that I can’t live up to myself.  There have been times that people have failed me.  They have sabatoged, betrayed and discouraged me, and it has made me feel like a failure. 

But, I am not a failure.  And neither is God.  God is good.  That all the reason to be positive, even in disappointment.

I don’t think you can get too far through life or ministry without disappointment.  So let it out.  What’s disappointed you lately?  What do you feel like you’ve failed at?

46 responses to Ministry FAIL

  1. Can I just say “Ditto”. And AMEN

  2. So You’re looking for failure– Look no further, John’s here.

    For 30+ years I’ve kept a daily diary and for the past five or so years, I’ve kept it in the form of a blog which I publish in a series of books. Titles include: A Dirty Old Man Goes Bad, A Dirty Old Man Gets Worse, etc.

    In these I try to show the Christian life as she is lived by one lone guy who doesn’t amount to much.

    Most of the time I feel barely tolerated by God instead of sweetly loved. I suppose the theme of my writing echoes Job, “Though He slam me…”

    Anyhow, though I don’t usually comment on your posts, your posting here made me think you might want to hear from an immanently unsuccessful believer.

    • John, I think the majority of Christians and ministers probably feel the way you do. They’re just the silent majority, while an exceptionally vocal minority make it seem like we’re doing something wrong. Thanks for sharing with honesty.

  3. Frankly, people only want to hear about failure when it’s something they can laugh at or shake their head and feel better about their lives as a result of seeing someone else fail. We don’t want to see failure that can be fixed because that would require to do something–myself included.

    I guess my biggest failure in life is me personally. On the job or in my ministry at church everything’s humming along nicely. It’s just that I feel like I’ve completely fallen apart. Virtually nothing I do is enjoyable any more, I have zero friends here locally, and what eats at me the most is the fact that I don’t have a girlfriend, much less be married like 99% of the other people in my demographic at church.

    As silly as it sounds, I feel like I’m a complete failure in life because of this. After all, all sorts of folks with no future in life or redeeming skills get married and live reasonably happy married lives, but I’m this successful young teacher that allegedly has everything going for me, yet I could order a mail-order bride and she’d get lost en route. People on occasion try to encourage me, but all they do is highlight my failure, usually in front of everyone and in as embarrassing of a manner as possible. And all this time, I ask God if it’s me or Him, and I never get an answer.

    So yeah, some of us deal with failure too. ;^)

    • Thanks for sharing with honesty, Loren. I won’t try to encourage you, so as to point out your failures, 😉 but I think the term “failure” is based on our misconception of what “success” is.

      • You of course may be correct, but when you attend a church that pushes 1,000 on Sunday mornings and are known as “the single guy,” it’s more than a bit disconcerting.

        • You sound like a deacon at my church. He’s probably in his mid 30’s, single, and during a recent(ish) deacon ordination service the pastor was announcing the new deacons to be ordained followed by their wife’s name, and a little about them.. when it came time for this man the pastor said, “This is “Dan”…we’re praying for him.” which was followed by polite laughter.

          It made me wince. As one of the only other unmarried adults in that church, I HATE that people define us by those terms & assuming that we’re on the hunt for a spouse, ESPECIALLY in ministry settings. Doesn’t Paul teach that as a single we are 100% free to do the Lord’s work, but when we marry, our focus is on pleasing our spouse first? Perhaps some of us are choosing not to pursue marriage because God has told us He needs our full attention (for now anyway). Yes it’s a sacrifice, but does constantly bringing up how lonely we must be, telling us we’ll find the right person eventually, etc really encourage anyone?

          they could at least call you the “most eligible bachelor” at the church. that sounds swanky and more exciting than “the singly guy”

      • I’m almost to the point of giving up. I’m failing bad. We were able to build a new building that took 2 years to complete. One week before we were moving back into the new building. I made a change in the financial department. Made the person and they left and a lot of people followed. And every sinse then the attendance is dwelling. And I don’t uderstand what I did wrong. It’s even head for me to preach. I’m am a failure!

  4. Since mom died, I feel like I lack purpose. God calls other people, not me. I don’t know what He wants me to do next, which indicates to me that I have become deaf to His voice.
    When I do think I have an “inkling” I find I have doubts about whether I can do it. Maybe it isn’t HIS direction at all, but merely me flailing around looking for purpose. Maybe He has no more tasks for me because I have failed enough already.

    • Helen, I’ve heard a lot of people with similar circumstances – a death in the family followed by a feeling of “purposlessness.” I know God will give you clarity in time, but perhaps you just need time to grieve and rest before doing something else.

    • Helen, I agree with Matt. We need time to move through our emotions, and the year of ‘firsts’ (first birthday, first Christmas, etc) to get clarity. We can rush into things just so we don’t have to feel or think (guilty as charged). It hasn’t really been that long since your Mum passed away (I still really miss my in-laws and it’s been 15 and 7 years). You aren’t purposeless – it has just changed and you have to find the direction it went, and you will. Sometimes, our purpose is to just sit in the presence of the Lord and be loved, until He brings along the person or job that is needing what we have to give.

      I do, and will, continue to pray for you whenever I see you comment somewhere. :)

    • A friend of mine a few years ago pointed to the verse in Isaiah about how His people will be like a tree planted by the water, always bearing fruit in its season. She pointed out that the tree doesn’t always bear fruit, only in it’s season and that there are times when we are to rest in God and just be. I remembered it this year as I have had to deal with moving 1800 miles away from friends who were as close as family, moving from lush lake filled country to desert and from small town near a metropolis to one of many metropolises all crammed together.

  5. failure’s on my mind a lot lately.

    i’m a missionary to germany, and had things going pretty well until about a year and a half ago. then within days, the ministry i had worked years to build fell apart. it wasn’t my fault and i couldn’t change things. but i still have to answer for it a lot.. people say things like “well sure it wasn’t your fault directly, but surely God was trying to tell you something about the sin in your life, otherwise this wouldn’t of happened.” or “you must not be hearing God’s will…”

    and i am like really?! why does God have to be saying anything through this? can’t things just fall apart sometimes? do we always have to point blame?

    so then i moved to southern germany to start over and am facing failure after failure.. not one but two ministries turned me down (ok, they want me to work for them, just not to pay me) and my vision for this city is no where near getting started. i feel like i am wasting my time, trying to make things start. and i am not used to the beginning pains anymore, since my ministry in the north was already running so well towards the end..

    and now the german gov’t has added to the trouble, saying that if i don’t raise my monthly support by june, they will not renew my visa. and it’s not looking good.. i have less than half. what do friends and fmily say to that? “well, if they don’t just give you the visa, it must not be God’s will to work through you anymore. maybe you should just give up and go home.” but this IS home. missions is my life. and why would God take my calling away? just because one thing fell apart? is He not bigger than that thing? is it not written that His power is made perfect in weakness?

    so yeah, i failed. i couldn’t of done anything differently, i tried my best, but i failed. but shouldn’t that be ok? isn’t grace big enough?

    so i guess i am just going to keep going, hopeing and praying that i am allowed to keep failing until i die… in 90 years, somewhere in germany, surrounded by the ministry i love….

    • Wow. I know it’s hard. I had a similar experience. I also had great friends who were missionaries in Vietnam. One morning they were suddenly escorted to the airport without prior notice; leaving behind their home, friends, church and a long time investment in their mission – years. I know how theirs ended and what God did afterward. But in this case I am just praying for those things that you need from God.

    • Cate, thank you for sharing so honestly. I want to encourage you. The people God loved most often were the ones who felt like the biggest failures at times. But our perception is not always reality. I will be praying for you in your ministry that God would give you clarity and assurance.

    • I am so sorry, cate, that you are dealing with a lot of “Job’s friends.” God might be using you through all of these setbacks and you might be as much of a witness to Him as you trust Him to work out the details in all the problems. Also, in your original “failure”, I have confidence that there are people who were impacted by God through you, even if it doesn’t look like it right now. And they might resurrect your ministry at some point in the future.

  6. Oh have I failed – in ministry, in character, and even today, I am finding it hard to engage with a local church. Some say I am the common denominator. Me, I wonder if I will ever return to ministry – all the doors seem closed. And yet, I still desire to serve God, and if a door opened, I would probably step right on through.

    I also confess I did a lot of stuff that looked like ministry, but they were good ideas, not God ideas. It is hard not be all religious some days.

    Until the next opportunity comes, I am waiting, loved by an awesome God who thinks the world of me, One who is not concerned with my performance or works, but with my eternal soul.

    Great post – very close to home. But next time a little more humor Okay?

  7. “I am willing for my ideas to crash and burn. As long as the skid marks they leave, point in the direction God wants me to go.” -Josh Pease

    For me, I seem to have everything together. I have a scholarship to a great christian college next year. But as I look around at high school, I realized I’ve failed. Sure, I’ve taken some opportunities and been open about my faith. But there is so much more I could have done to tangibly impact my school.

  8. Most recent failure? Pseudo-fostering children. And here I am in the middle–back at the beginning?–of the adoption process! What’s wrong with me? Is this even where I’m supposed to be?

    Failure: I has it.


  9. I’ve written about it before, but I think you’re right that we gloss it over many times. It’s a delicate balance, especially as a leader, to show how things were disappointing but we still have faith. I definitely don’t always get it right, but I do try to be honest while being sensitive…

    Anyway, good thoughts.

  10. I’ve been wanting to write about this on my blog for a while but I’ve felt like if I did, somehow word would get back to my church and people wouldn’t take my opinions too kindly. Thankfully, I don’t think anyone from my church reads this blog.

    I see heart issues with my church. Maybe it’s just White culture, but our expression toward God is emotionless at church. On retreats, it’s a different story, but if worship to God is our response to Him given what He’s doing in us, I don’t think anyone at my church is “worshiping”.

    My failure is that I suck at being the change I want to see in my church. Even if I see a problem, I fit right in, still emotionless, still not able to find it in myself to respond to God the way I know I want to and the way I should. Maybe I’m unwilling to make a change and take a risk. Maybe I feel like it’s on a pastor and now a lowly parishioner to step up. I’m not sure but I see my church is stuck in a rut and I’m stuck with it.

  11. @David and Cate and especially Helen – I hope I can express how full my heart is for each of you right now, but I’m not sure that my words are adequate (Cate, I definitely identify with you the most, as my “M” work was held up and literally mocked as a failure to my face by other workers, repeatedly).

    Dearhearts, don’t forget that God does His best work through what the world sees as “failure.” It’s when we’re at our lowest that we can see Him most clearly at work because it is absolutely not us. Think of Moses the murderer or Gideon the coward or Peter the liar. Think of them and have hope! Recognize too that your “desert” time is for a purpose as well. But also recognize that it will end!

    God is blessing all of you, I pray that He will allow you to see it!

  12. It took me a long time to realize failure is OK.
    It’s the fear of failure that keeps us from stepping out and trusting God. If we aren’t failing at times, maybe we aren’t taking enough risks.

  13. Two thoughts to contribute:

    1) I think the “Internet is not fail-friendly” thing goes deeper than many imagine. This is one of the core Fails of 21st century e-connections. We only see what others are willing to share. SOooo un-real. In the F2F world, we see the real mix of success and failure, creative adventure and maintaining the status quo. F2F life doesn’t get to be branded, filtered, blogged. It just IS.

    2) Funny how Venture Capital has enabled such incredible risk-taking that we now have this awesome set of Internet tools. Yet every Venture Capitalist knows, and deeply appreciates, the necessity for failure. In fact, while they only invest in projects that they fully believe will return 100:1 in a few years, they know the reality: 5 of 10 die, 3-4 muddle along, and one of ten is a real winner. So if I have an 80% “win” rate, I’m not really much of a risk-taker! :)

  14. Great post! A few thoughts:

    1. We live in the age of decay. Our present default American culture elevates expectation beyond reality completely against 100% of verifiable experience. All of us will eventually lose everything we can lay our hands on. Everything breaks down given enough time. We don’t like it so we have created a level of communal denial that is absolutely staggering in its dishonesty.

    2. Nothing in the Bible suggests that loyalty to the Christian brand in the age of decay undoes any of this. This is of course the great church-marketing-lie. Only the cross and resurrection undo the age of decay, nothing less. CS Lewis notes that nothing can be raised that has not died.

    I find only keeping these two thought in mind helps me make any sense of the incredible loss that fills our lives and ministries. Thanks for being honest. pvk

  15. I fail to attempt great things for God because I am afraid that I would fail at them. So basically I accept the preemptive failure of NOT EVEN TRYING.

    One time last year, I was sitting outside reading a book and this cute little 4(?) year old girl slammed her finger in the car door only a few feet away, and starting crying and I know it had to hurt! and her mom put everything down and went and hugged that girl and just held her as though she could feel the pain herself and I was tempted…PUSHED even, to go hold that girl’s finger in my hand and then pray out loud. (like with the expectation that God would heal through me????) but instead I went inside and got her some ice and a bandaid.

    What would have happened if I had just done what I felt led to do? What if God didn’t instantly heal her finger? (no harm done? I could have then gone to get a bandaid and ice anyway, right? I guess I risk making myself look looney)

    I failed because I wasn’t even willing to TRY.

  16. Holy crap, Matt! Thank you for this. I think everyone in ministry should read this post. Having close friends in ministry, I know how difficult it is to be honest about feelings of failure or feeling that you don’t measure up. So, what do pastors do when they get together? Do they share their feelings of insecurity? I wish they would, but that’s not been my experience. It’s all about the numbers. What’s the first question pastors ask each other? “What are you running on Sunday?” As if Sunday is the end game. And the worst part is I know that most of them understand that Sunday isn’t the end game, but no one is willing to go first. So thanks for going first.

    • It’s far worse than you imagine. I know a therapist who specializes in pastors. He tells me about the line of guys scraping themselves up off the floor every Monday AM based on how many people showed, or not, how well the music sent, who screwed up, whether he laid an egg behind the pulpit, etc. When pastors get together it can be a pissing contest. When pastors share more community they get more honest about the whole thing, their anxieties, the nature of the game, etc. Thanks for asking. pvk

  17. I’m not in ministry, but I certainly have felt the failure part as a mom, though I have three great kids. I just “shoulda, coulda” done better. I think a lot of it is seeing ourselves differently than others see us.

    Let me ask you this, Matt – what would success look like to you? From where I sit (not knowing you personally) you look like a rock star. So what would it look like?

  18. Too often we look to others as a barometer to measure failure and success in our ministries and forget it’s actually about God’s will.

    If I had a choice, I truly would rather my efforts in His name have an eternal impact on a single person for God’s glory than pastor a church of thousands with lukewarm people filling a pew space as fire insurance with no intention, desire or heart to show another soul the love of Christ.

    Sorry…I guess I’m a little emotional about the subject. Great post Matt. One that needs to be heard.

  19. I think a lot of the church FAIL issue and church envy issues arise out of the institutional side of it. In our culture a lot rides on appearance and the quality of “the show”. A large, wealthy, well staffed church can produce events and programs that can elicit a “wow” factor and if our particular congregation is unable to do likewise we internalize this “lessness”. Pastors are especially susceptible to this given our own idolatrous and adulterous enmeshment issues between our egos and the performance anxiety of the church. The seeker movement combined with the promoted reduction of the mission of the church to “soul salvation” raised this all to a fever pitch making the emergent movement and its emphasis on the “non-show” a bit of reactionary recovery time. For those of us who are part of the “less than”, non surgically enhanced models of the bride of Christ we often also know that there is tremendous strength and value in the more intimate, community aspects of the relationship. A visitor bringing a critical eye may not immediately appreciate the bonds of love that years of living together and struggling together create. Again, it’s kind of like looking in on someone else’s family. In many ways its a whole other country whose language you may not know and whose joys you may have no window in on. The only way to enter is in fact to commit and to join the life of that family, with all of its dysfunctions and feuds along with the joys. I think this is the majority case when it comes to church and answers the mysteries of why so many little churches that when evaluated by the metrics of the show seem to have no basis for existence and in the eyes of some no justification do in fact determinedly continue to on in both their joy and sorrows despite looking like the dumpy aunt accompanying the starlet niece on the red carpet.

    I remember a story in a marriage book of a guy talking to another guy at a table in a restaurant. Somehow the conversation wandered over to the other guy’s wife. The guy was bragging about how terrific his wife was, what a fulfilling marriage they had, how great their sex life was, etc. The story teller was eager to meet this woman and concocted an image in his mind of a totally hot babe. In walks this woman who was about as round as she was tall, not someone who would have turned heads in the room.

    By virtue of our cultural circumstance our churches are institutions that in a sense put on weekly shows by which they are judged. We shouldn’t confuse this with the essence of what the church is, however. pvk

  20. I didn’t want to write a reply yesterday – it was my birthday. But I kept thinking, “gosh I relate…too much.”

    Today I can write and say I am one beautiful failure after another. I don’t get it right the first time around. I didn’t get math right the first time around either. It took a lot of practice… more than I wanted to put the effort into.

    I judge myself against others. Mental, physical, spiritual, etc… I push myself to keep up with the gym, church, social, and serving Jones. And it wears me a little thin. I can’t keep myself from failing in one place or another. Somewhere I have to accept failure, whether it comes from my own harsh views, or someone else’s expectations placed on me.

    Like John Cowart, I started blogging my diary of sorts online. I needed to let my voice out. I had a need to speak of my failures, and all the things I question. It has been a journey of success and failures. And I wouldn’t change a thing. I have no regrets. Although sometimes I do wish God was more vending machine like, dispensing all my wishes and desires…

  21. Thank you. As a former pastor’s daughter- I know first-hand of the feelings you touched on here. Often there is no one for the pastor to truly share his heart with- besides his family who understand the ministry. This keeps pastors hiding from the real world.

    Why would any of us ever think it will all be rosy when Jesus himself would have been considered a “failure” by his contemporaries?

    The end result of our ministries- whether we are pastors, bloggers, writers, parents, or missionaries, will be judged on the motives of our hearts. Many that are viewed as successful or no where near God- others who seemingly are scrambling for crumbs may receive the greatest reward.

    Matt- I don’t care how many books you write- how many people visit this blog or “follow” you or attend your church- you have a gift of communicating. It works on so many levels. You have blessed me.
    I’m thankful to have crossed paths with you and your honest heart.

  22. I currently live with my best friend of 10 years, but I’m moving out to go to grad school at the end of the summer. My room mate isn’t a Christian (she believes in God, but that’s the extent of things), and I’ve seen her suffer a great deal in life as a result of being brought up in a household that has no concept of the massive love of God. She went to a few youth group events with me in high school, but that stopped as we got older.

    While I’m pretty sure that over the many years that we’ve known each other my life as Christian has had an impact on her, sometimes I wonder if I’ve failed in some way because after a decade of friendship, she doesn’t seem much closer to Christ than when we met. We’ve even lived together for two years at this point.

    And even though I wish she was a Christian, I know for a fact that I don’t talk to her about it as much as I should. I think I’ve just given up.

    So that’s my “fail” story.

  23. Failure. The successes are always trumpeted – the church plant that grew to 500 in 6 months – the program that changed the whole church – the revival in Florida that people stand in line for while the evangelist cheats on his wife. We in ministry are always silently and not so silently comparing ourselves to the rare phenomenal success stories which make us feel like failures or at least under blessed.
    I failed in my first church. The church grew but a worm, a hacker, a hijacker came in and opposed me. I was young, naive and alone and finally resigned the ministry. My second church was a church plant…never got off the ground. My third church almost booted me out because of the in church politics. All those failures made me into a better man and pastor. Here is to failure!!

  24. it does not help that there are a million people out there waiting for you to fail so that can point it out and look popular :O

  25. He got through the most important sermon of his ministry (Sermon on the Mount) and did not even mention blood for sin… and when, on another occasion he spoke about sacrifice he said this: “I will have mercy, and not sacrifice.” (more context on the Kingdom Gospel is in my biography)

    So what’s the deal here? If sacrifice was so important, why did Christ fail to even preach about it?

    And he said nothing about sacrifice after the Crucifixion either.

    So what’s up here?

  26. I have noticed that wether u buy biscuits , cookies , cakes , cereal , juices or soda all of them are much Sweeter or Saltier compared to other countries I have been. Try the Lay’s potato Chips they are extremely Salty. I fail to understand why it is so. Don’t the local population of this country know how bad this is for their health or the Ministry of Health doesn’t care what the people are getting in their supermarkets. We see alarming number of obese kids in this country.

  27. As many focus on the “37th” rank that the U.S. received in RESULTS, (which is being fed by MSNBC) has anyone studied this themselves?

    This is from the WHO web site…

    The World Health Report says the main failings of many health systems are:

    * Many health ministries focus on the public sector and often disregard the frequently much larger private sector health care.

    * In many countries, some if not most physicians work simultaneously for the public sector and in private practice. This means the public sector ends up subsidizing unofficial private practice.

    * Many governments fail to prevent a “black market” in health, where widespread corruption, bribery, “moonlighting” and other illegal practices flourish. The black markets, which themselves are caused by malfunctioning health systems, and low income of health workers, further undermine those systems.

    * Many health ministries fail to enforce regulations that they themselves have created or are supposed to implement in the public interest.

    Now read the bill and consider THIS is where we are heading!

  28. Was Malcolm X right or ?
    Malcolm X wrote many controversial analysis about America and the white power structure i.e the establishment. He talked about the police, the judiciary, the congress, the federal institutions, the ministry offices etc. He suggested america would be better if they fight for fairness and justice. Now, america is in problem – all round. the economy failed, int’l image tarnished, minorities at home are constantly at war with the system, racism is very rampant – though subtle. capitalism as a system seems unable to weather the storm. it is staggering. was malcolm x right?

  29. Is Buddhism failed when female monks allowed to stay in ministries. Atheism has no patent. Do not reply that atheism is limited to only nonbelievers of god.

  30. There were six explosions within an hour, killin 95 according to CNN news source, Iraq’s Interior Ministry officials said. A truck bomb damaged the Ministry of Foreign Affairs building and another attack took place near the Ministry of Finance. The USA invasion looks as if it has failed.

  31. driving for the last 4years on G2,for renewal driving center fail me two times on unreasonable grounds when talked to the supervisor she allowed for the third time but she failed me again purposely she was very rude and told me that she has done this deliberately,she knows that ministry will not take any action….?AM I RIGHT ?

  32. I read that riight bwefore God calls someone to a special ministry He will test him in one of four ways.

    Patience Test

    Obedience Test

    Faith Test

    Temptation Test

    If God did so but the person failed because He didn’t know the situation was from God, will He give him another chance to pass?

    Also, would God ever use deception to carry out the test?

  33. If religious belief is a choice, why are there so many atheists who desperately try to regain their faith and fail? e.g. pastors who have devoted their whole life to the ministry and people who fear that they would be disowned by their family if they came out of the closet